This is the first post in a short series about guilt. You may also be interested in More on guilt, and Take guilt off your to do list
The other day a couple of my Twitter followers mentioned that they were getting better at following my advice about focusing on their priorities and not saying yes to everything, but that they still felt guilty about that.
I’m pretty sure they are not alone.
I think the problem might be that my advice seems selfish. By focusing on your priorities, it seems like you are putting your needs above those of others.
Your priorities are not selfish.
Yes, some people’s priorities are selfish. Those people do not feel guilty about that.
In my experience, people who feel guilty about focusing on their priorities and saying no to things, are the kind of people who prioritize doing good in the world in some way.
You feel guilty that the good you are doing isn’t enough. That you could do more. That the research you are doing is only a drop in the bucket of what is needed. That you aren’t doing enough to compensate for the failures of mass higher education to truly meet the needs of those students who have so much potential. That university committees really do need to be diverse. …
You can only do so much.
Your resources — time, energy, etc — are finite.
You cannot allow your measure of your worth to be based on how much of a dent you put in the infinite stock of stuff that needs doing.
Focus on how well you are using the resources you have.
What is your best contribution?
You can’t do everything, so think about what the best thing for you to contribute is. That is your priority.
Remember the airline safety rule: put on your own mask before helping others. If you are unemployed and homeless it’s going to be a lot harder for you to make a strong contribution to making the world a better place. Securing a job that gives you the solid foundation from which to work might look selfish but it also serves your higher purpose.
Similarly, if you are burnt out, tired, undernourished, or sick, you can’t make your best contribution. Taking time to look after your own physical, emotional and spiritual needs is not a distraction. You are maintaining the tool you use to make your contribution.
If you need to finish x before you can really do y, then focusing on whatever it takes to finish x is a sensible priority even if the immediate impact of x doesn’t feel that significant. It is a stepping stone to y, which has more impact.
This is hard.
I think it is especially hard for women in our culture for reasons a whole library of feminist literature tries to explain. But it’s hard for anyone who wants to make a contribution to something bigger. Focusing on yourself seems the antithesis of that goal. It isn’t.
You are not alone in struggling with this. Priorities, Boundaries, and Slack are the principles underlying the planning classes I lead in the Academic Writing Studio. Join us for support and community as you figure out how to do this.
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This post was edited 3 July 2017 and 30 March 2022 when it was added to the Saying No Spotlight.
[…] My biggest problem with “process” at the moment is that I’ve ended up having less and less time for necessary deep reflection on the things that are coming up both academically and in other areas of life. There is always a lot going on, but I don’t have much space to think about it. On the one hand it’s fantastic to have so many things on the go–I’m blessed–and each time something comes up I want to jump on board because of the benefit of the experience; it’s also an honour to be invited to participate in other people’s events and projects. But I’ve finally reached a point where, for the first time, I’ve had to start saying “no” (even when I feel guilty doing it). This is something Jo Van Every wrote about in her blog this week. […]